38 weeks and 5 days!!!

I can't believe I'm almost to the end!!! This pregnancy has really flown by...I'm sitting her all alone...Chris in Houston and Owen sleeping. I'm 4 cm dilated...crazy! Every day something is going on, but nothing is stopping this baby. I've been running around taking care of everybody...and now it's almost time for Cooper to be here. ahhhh freaking out just a little. Last time I was so worried about delivery. I haven't really had time to think about it. But it's about to happen. I'm about to give birth!! I so wish that Chris could be there, but I'm thankful he will be at home and able to meet Cooper. I've been battling if I was ready for him to be here or not...I think he will bring so much love to this home. We've wanted him for so long!! I love this little one so much. There's just so much going on...I feel like I won't be able to be the mommy he needs. I hope that I can be super woman and be there for all this boys. It's going to be hard, but I really can't wait to meet him. I'm ready to see Owen be the best big brother. I can't wait to see Chris hold him...I think it will help him so much. I don't know how the next year will be, but I just have to do it. I know it will be hard...but with have this miracle coming really really soon. Cooper, we are so ready for you and love you so much!

Almost 38 weeks!

How far along? 37 weeks 4 days...getting close!!
Total weight gain: I have no idea! Probably close to 25lbs. I have not been weighing or paying attention at doctors. This pregnancy I haven't been walking and eating like a monster!!! Being pregnant during Christmas...is not the way to go!!
Dr Appt updates: Last week I was 3cm dilated and 50 % effaced...everything is going. He said my cervix is soft and probably in two weeks...which we are close to one now. I go tomorrow morning. Only 2 maybe more to go!! This pregnacy has been perfect!!
Sleep: I slept good last night. But most nights...I sleep on the love seat. Cooper is moving and I'm uncomfortable. My back hurts and I have to pee and I'm just big...but it's great right!! :) Owen has been waking up to sleep with me and there is no room!!
Best moment of the week: Just being with my family!!
Movement: It's getting unreal!! Owen loves when he can feels him and gets excited!!
Labor signs: None!!
Belly Button: It's being stretched in every which way!!!
Milestones: I've only been here once before and I'm so excited to meet our little boy!!

The bags are packed and carseat in the car!! Just have to do a few more things...but we be ready!!

Flashback....38 weeks with Owen!!!!

How far along? 38 weeks! Baby is about 19 inches long and 7lbs! It's the size of a pumpkin! I think it's time for him to come out! :)

Total weight gain/loss: I gained 1/2 a lbs this week...so according to dr I'm up to abt 13lbs.

Dr. Appointment Updates?I had an appt on Thursday. My blood pressure was borderline, so they want me to come in on Monday to check my blood pressure. Owen's hb was in the 140's. I'm dilated to about a 2 and the baby had dropped even more...I knew that!! It's hanging out in-between my legs. My co-worker had her appt before me, and she was rushed to L&D b/c her blood pressure was really high and swollen. She's now put on bed rest.

Next Appointment: It's on Thursday at 2:50!!

Maternity clothes? YES!!

Sleep:  Yes, I've been sleeping pretty good. Just having dreams about baby. Chris finally had a dream about Owen coming. I still wake up to go potty...and there's times where I'm just wide awake..but I'm sleeping pretty good.
Best moment this week: Knowing that I'm just a little bit closer to getting Owen here. A lot of people have had their babies this week. I'm totally scared of labor...but I'm ready!!

Movement: Yes...and they are lower and feel like he wants to come out. I'm been having like a sharp pain go down to the area sometimes...but I just read for week 38 that is normal. It's the baby's head hitting nerves that are down there...it's called the lighting bolt. 

Food cravings/aversions: Nothing really!
Labor Signs: I really have only had braxton hicks when I'm walking and haven't really ate yet. I'm ready for some....are to see the bloody show or even water breaking.
Belly Button in or out? Yeah, it's out!

What I am looking forward to: Meeting Mr. Owen!

Milestones: I'm two weeks away from meeting my son! CRAZY!! 

 

The bags are in the car....I have a feeling it's going to be this weekend! But watch I'll go a week over. 

 

 

I have one more week of work!!! YEAH!

 

Only a little more than three weeks away!!!!

This pregnancy has flown by!! I can't believe we are almost here! It's unreal!! I haven't had a lot of time to think about it, but Cooper is coming!! I was dilated to a 2 and 50% effaced at my doctor appointment...he could feel Cooper's head and that freaks me out!! Little one is coming!! :)

I'm up in the air....He can stay in forever and I can't wait to meet him. Life is stressful and I know newborns make it crazy...but I can't wait to hold him!! And just love him so much! I can't wait to see Owen be a big brother! I can't wait for Chris to meet him. I've been looking and waiting for miracles to happen...and one has been here the whole time..Cooper is a miracle!! I'm so thankful for this little one.

35 weeks!!

How far along? Exactly 35 weeks! I can't believe we only have 5 weeks or less!
Weight gain? Close to 20!! Don't really weigh myself anymore.
Sleep? Some nights are horrible and others are okay!! Ready to get this baby out!
Best moment of the week? When Owen gives my belly a hug and says best friends cooper.
Things I miss: Just being able to bend and get around easier and just tired...it's hard keeping up with this family.
Look forward to: holding and seeing what Cooper looks like....seing Chris hold Cooper and seeing Owen be a big brother :)

just me

I've been feeling very overwhelmed and stressed here lately. Some days I don't know if I can keep doing this. Others days I feel pumped and postive and we can handle the world. I know that I love Chris more than anyone and I will keep fighting for his better days. I truly believe that we will get there. It's truly not going to be in my timing. I really can't believe that here we are six months later. I hate hat hate ulcerative colitis. I wish I could punch, kick, scream and kill it. It has truly tried to destroy us. I cannot let it control us. There is so much more than uc. I have to put trust, faith, hope in my Heavenly Father. It's really hard right because I feel like he is not listening.

We will win.

a year

Yesterday marked a year since we lost our last little angel. Memories of that day kept creeping into my mind all day. It's always hard to think back on those times. I love that little one so much. I got to see it on the ultrasound and keep the picture of the fridge. My heart was in heaven yesterday. One day little one I will hold you again.

30 weeks!!!

How far along? I can't believe we only have 10 weeks or less!!! We are in the 30's!!
Weight gain: Right at 14 pounds...doctor says I need to gain a pound a week! eek!! Cooper is getting big...about 16 inches long and 3lbs.
Sleep: I'm waking up a few times a night to go potty...it's getting hard to move this belly from side to side. Cooper is awake a lot at night!!
Best Moment of the week: Hearing Cooper's heartbeart in the 160's and doctor said this is a perfect pregnancy. Soooo happy to hear that!!
Things I miss: being able to bend, shave my legs easier, play with Owen....just getting around.
Look forward to: I'm know going every two weeks...and Chris getting better and Cooper being here and watching Owen be a big brother.