How far along? 10 weeks and 1 day! :)
Weight gain: None yet!
Maternity clothes: I'm wearing some tops just because I don't want to wear my tight shirts...ugh I'm in the I'm bloated fat stage!!
Sleep: pretty well, besides a little boy who wants to wake up!! I get up at least once to pee a night and I'm having super crazy dreams.
Best Moment of the month: Seeing sprout twice on the ultrasound and seeing that heartbeat!! So in love.
Worst: Dealing with being nauseous all the time! (It's worst at night now!!)
Miss anything: Just having energy!
Cravings: root beer floats, mashed potatoes, biscuits and gravy
Queasy/sick: nauseous all the time!!!
Looking forward to: TUESDAY!!!!
5.29.2015
5.19.2015
A year ago...
It was my last week being 29, a little nervous to be turning 30. I was pregnant. Hubby was healthy. Owen was a mess, but perfect. Everything was okay.
Little did I know that the months following would be some of the hardest of my life. We lost three sweet little ones in just a few short months. Chris got very ill and got diagnosed with ulcerative colitis and had to take three months off from work. As soon as Chris went back to work, blue bell had their recall. And now we are pregnant again.
It's really been a hard year. But I've learned that all you need is love and each other.
So I'm going to embrace being 31!
Little did I know that the months following would be some of the hardest of my life. We lost three sweet little ones in just a few short months. Chris got very ill and got diagnosed with ulcerative colitis and had to take three months off from work. As soon as Chris went back to work, blue bell had their recall. And now we are pregnant again.
It's really been a hard year. But I've learned that all you need is love and each other.
So I'm going to embrace being 31!
May is full of mixed emotions!!
In May of 2011, I found out that I was pregnant for the first time. I was sooo excited. I took three test that day. I told the world because I wasn't really aware of the world of miscarriage at that time. My mom had had two, but she also had seven children. I didn't know anyone else personaly who had gone through it.
I was so excited when I got that positive! We had only tried one month and boom!! For about four weeks I was in baby bliss. I had already started buying baby stuff and decorated the room before we even started trying. I was sooo ready to be a mom.
I went to my first doctor's appointment and just did blood work and discussed everything pregnancy related. We set my appointment for my ultrasound. I already loved this little one so much.
The night before my birthday...May 23rd. I had went for a walk when I got back I had some brown discharge. I was freaking out. I googled. (it's what I do best!) It seemed like it was a normal thing and brown was good because it meant old blood. But the next day it just got worse and worse. I was passing clots and bleeding a lot. Chris had went to get tractor work and I couldn't get a hold of him. I was just a mess. I kept calling my mom and sisters to talk. I was passing bigger clots...so I called my mother-in-law and she came to get me to go to the ER. My dad was on his way to meet us from work. The bleeding was getting worse and worse, but I still had hope for my baby.
The tech did the ultrasound and they are allowed to say anything to you and can be pretty rude. They said my doctor would call me with results. I knew deep down that my baby was alredy gone.
It was after 5...but I got a call from my doctor saying the baby was gone. My heart broke. I was a mother to an angel.
Tomorrow is the due date for my 6th little one. Yes, being pregnant does help. But it doesn't replace that I should be about to give birth to this sweet angel. I will never know this little one. I keep my ultrasound of my baby on the fridge, so I can remember all the little moments I had with them. I know one day I will get to see this sweet baby. My thoughts will be with them tomorrow.
I was so excited when I got that positive! We had only tried one month and boom!! For about four weeks I was in baby bliss. I had already started buying baby stuff and decorated the room before we even started trying. I was sooo ready to be a mom.
I went to my first doctor's appointment and just did blood work and discussed everything pregnancy related. We set my appointment for my ultrasound. I already loved this little one so much.
The night before my birthday...May 23rd. I had went for a walk when I got back I had some brown discharge. I was freaking out. I googled. (it's what I do best!) It seemed like it was a normal thing and brown was good because it meant old blood. But the next day it just got worse and worse. I was passing clots and bleeding a lot. Chris had went to get tractor work and I couldn't get a hold of him. I was just a mess. I kept calling my mom and sisters to talk. I was passing bigger clots...so I called my mother-in-law and she came to get me to go to the ER. My dad was on his way to meet us from work. The bleeding was getting worse and worse, but I still had hope for my baby.
The tech did the ultrasound and they are allowed to say anything to you and can be pretty rude. They said my doctor would call me with results. I knew deep down that my baby was alredy gone.
It was after 5...but I got a call from my doctor saying the baby was gone. My heart broke. I was a mother to an angel.
Tomorrow is the due date for my 6th little one. Yes, being pregnant does help. But it doesn't replace that I should be about to give birth to this sweet angel. I will never know this little one. I keep my ultrasound of my baby on the fridge, so I can remember all the little moments I had with them. I know one day I will get to see this sweet baby. My thoughts will be with them tomorrow.
Little Rainbow Sprout!!!
I was really scared going into the ultrasound. I had two missed miscarriages last year and ultrasounds are not my favorite things! The hubs got to go with me, so that helps to have support. He almost didn't make it. I had already been called back and was waiting for the doctor when Chris showed up. I'm glad I didn't have to go alone.
But we got super super good news! Little sprout was measuring right at 7 1/2 weeks and the heart was just a pumping. We got to hear it and it was still in the 140's. I was beaming and so was Chris. Sprout, we adore you! :)
Two more weeks till we get to check on sprout again. Hurry up already!
5.08.2015
My smile won't go away!!
I was so nervous, scared, and excited going into my doctor appointment on Tuesday. I'm so thankful it was in the morning, so I didn't have to wait all day. I was prepared for the worse news and the best news. But I think overall I knew it was going to be okay. My mama and Chris were able to go with me, I need my support team. The last time we had all gone together, was when we saw Owen for the first time.
It felt like we had to wait FOREVER!!! They called us back and I knew it was about to get real. We first met with a nurse who went over all the questions of my history, what medications I'm taking, took a pregnancy test and it was super positive!! I should know I hava about 20!! I hate talking about my history. This is my 8th pregnancy. I've been pregnant as many times as my mom. Crazy!! I can remember all the dates and details. I really do miss all my angels.
We were then moved to another room to wait for the doctor. I truly love my doctor. He walked in and asked Chris how he was doing and what was going on with his colitis. I was really impressed b/c I talked to him about that in Jan. We didn't wait long to move to ultrasond room to see little sprout. I was starting to freak out. I just wanted to know.
As soon as we saw the picture on the ultrasound it just looked like an empty sac. I was scared, we were all scared....but then he zoomed in and I saw the heartbeat right away. I was beaming!! There was my little sprout. The doctor then said the heartbeat was really strong in the 140's. They made me even more happy! I wanted to jump up and down!! The last heartbeat I saw was Owen's....so this is HUGE!! There were a few tears shared from all of us. Sooooo happy!!! The dr checked for a few other things. The egg came from the left ovary. He said right now there was no sign of miscarriage.
We are going to be going in every week, just to make sure everything is going okay. My two missed miscarriages from last year quit growing in the 6th-8th week. So this time is very vital. I'm still nervous and scared...but more happy. I really think at Christmas this little sprout will be here.
I'm this little one's mother! I love this little one soooooo much!!
keep growing sprout!
It felt like we had to wait FOREVER!!! They called us back and I knew it was about to get real. We first met with a nurse who went over all the questions of my history, what medications I'm taking, took a pregnancy test and it was super positive!! I should know I hava about 20!! I hate talking about my history. This is my 8th pregnancy. I've been pregnant as many times as my mom. Crazy!! I can remember all the dates and details. I really do miss all my angels.
We were then moved to another room to wait for the doctor. I truly love my doctor. He walked in and asked Chris how he was doing and what was going on with his colitis. I was really impressed b/c I talked to him about that in Jan. We didn't wait long to move to ultrasond room to see little sprout. I was starting to freak out. I just wanted to know.
As soon as we saw the picture on the ultrasound it just looked like an empty sac. I was scared, we were all scared....but then he zoomed in and I saw the heartbeat right away. I was beaming!! There was my little sprout. The doctor then said the heartbeat was really strong in the 140's. They made me even more happy! I wanted to jump up and down!! The last heartbeat I saw was Owen's....so this is HUGE!! There were a few tears shared from all of us. Sooooo happy!!! The dr checked for a few other things. The egg came from the left ovary. He said right now there was no sign of miscarriage.
We are going to be going in every week, just to make sure everything is going okay. My two missed miscarriages from last year quit growing in the 6th-8th week. So this time is very vital. I'm still nervous and scared...but more happy. I really think at Christmas this little sprout will be here.
I'm this little one's mother! I love this little one soooooo much!!
keep growing sprout!
5.04.2015
Tomorrow is the big day!!
Sprout-
I'm so in love with you!! I can't wait to see you tomorrow! Even though I'm totally freaking out, I really feel like it's going to be okay. I can't wait to see your little heart beat! I'm love you so much!!!
Keep growing sprout.
Love,
Mommy
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