Only a little more than three weeks away!!!!

This pregnancy has flown by!! I can't believe we are almost here! It's unreal!! I haven't had a lot of time to think about it, but Cooper is coming!! I was dilated to a 2 and 50% effaced at my doctor appointment...he could feel Cooper's head and that freaks me out!! Little one is coming!! :)

I'm up in the air....He can stay in forever and I can't wait to meet him. Life is stressful and I know newborns make it crazy...but I can't wait to hold him!! And just love him so much! I can't wait to see Owen be a big brother! I can't wait for Chris to meet him. I've been looking and waiting for miracles to happen...and one has been here the whole time..Cooper is a miracle!! I'm so thankful for this little one.

35 weeks!!

How far along? Exactly 35 weeks! I can't believe we only have 5 weeks or less!
Weight gain? Close to 20!! Don't really weigh myself anymore.
Sleep? Some nights are horrible and others are okay!! Ready to get this baby out!
Best moment of the week? When Owen gives my belly a hug and says best friends cooper.
Things I miss: Just being able to bend and get around easier and just tired...it's hard keeping up with this family.
Look forward to: holding and seeing what Cooper looks like....seing Chris hold Cooper and seeing Owen be a big brother :)

just me

I've been feeling very overwhelmed and stressed here lately. Some days I don't know if I can keep doing this. Others days I feel pumped and postive and we can handle the world. I know that I love Chris more than anyone and I will keep fighting for his better days. I truly believe that we will get there. It's truly not going to be in my timing. I really can't believe that here we are six months later. I hate hat hate ulcerative colitis. I wish I could punch, kick, scream and kill it. It has truly tried to destroy us. I cannot let it control us. There is so much more than uc. I have to put trust, faith, hope in my Heavenly Father. It's really hard right because I feel like he is not listening.

We will win.