Struggling

I have pictures all over my house. Now it's kind of haunting me because it's pictures of better times. Times I wish I could go back and enjoy more. It reminds me of how Chris use to be, and I miss it so much. I wish I could wake up and all this be a nightmare.

This is so hard to do this day after day. I miss my husband so much. He now just lays in bed all day. He takes a few naps every day. I hate watching him walk around because he is so skinny and looks like he could just fall. He struggles to eat just a sandwhich.

I miss having him just be around. It's hard having to do it all. I try to have faith and hope that everything will be okay. I try to be positive for him, but it's so hard. I feel like I'm failing. There's so much that he is missing and it kills me. The hardest thing is seeing the person you love the most suffer. Health really is everything.