Words can't describe how I feel right now.
Tuesday I went in for the ultrasound. Since I have so many losses I always try to prepare myself for what could happen...but I was really expecting good news.
My mama went with me. Chris had to work. I'm so glad I wasn't alone.
The doctor asked me about morning sickness...and I was still having it.
We go in to do the ultrasound...and the image comes across. Little sprout had grown but I knew that it was suppose to be bigger. But I still had hope. The doctor looked around for a few minutes to see if he could see a heart beat. He couldn't find anything. My heart broke...I couldn't believe I was here again. This is exactly what planned out with our little one in June. I was broken. Sprout was measuring at 6 1/2 weeks and I was almost 8.
I held my tears as the doctor talked to me about doing testing. I really don't remember everything he said.
I feel broken.
So now I wait to miscarry my sprout. I'm still having morning sickness. I'm still feeling dizzy. I'm still feeling oh so tired. He did talk about a d&c...I've never had one so it scares me.
I go back in two weeks. If I haven't miscarried by then we will talk about other options.
Why is this happening?
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