Tuesday evening at around 7pm I took the first pill. I was really scared and nervous. I felt like I just had a few moments left of being with my little sprout before having to say good-bye. I was ready for it to be over, but still wanting to be pregnant. I didn't want to be here again or doing this. It sucks!!!
About an hour after I took the pill I went to the bathroom and there was already light spotting. Another hour later I started light cramping...period like cramps. I was so done and just wanted to go to bed. But Owen was so full of energy and running everywhere. Chris let me go get in the bed, but Owen wanted to be near his Mommy.
Finally at 10 we got Owen to sleep. I new it was going to be a long night and wanted to get some sleep. But being Abby I can't sleep with all this going on. At around 12 I started really cramping. I wanted to do it all without pain medicine. I've done it before I thought I could do it again. By now I was really bleeding and filling up the toilet when I went. I tried to sleep when I could. At around 1 the cramps were pretty intense..they were more than cramps...contractions. They would be really sharp pains and then relax...but they were one right after another. I tried to breathe and then I would go to the toilet. Right around 2...They were really sharp and that's when I passed the baby and the placenta. I was trying to look and see if I could tell...I knew what I was looking at and it broke my heart. The contractions were still coming so I finally took the medicine...it helped and put me to sleep.
I'm not strong enough to do this right now.
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