It's been 9 days since I found out my baby died...My body still hasn't figured this out yet. I was so sick last night. I felt like I just wanted to throw up on everything. Every morning I'm really dizzy and today at lunch I couldn't finish my sandwich because it tasted disgusting.
I'm ready for the waiting to be over. This part really sucks. I've never had to do this before. With our MC in June...I started spotting right before a doctor's appointment. I thought it was all over and we did an ultrasound and the doctor said the pregnancy was still viable...even though it was measuring three weeks behind and he didn't get a heartbeat. I knew he was wrong, but I still had a little hope. That night..well early am at 2 in the morning it all started. The most horrible experience.
With all my other MC...I had never seen a little one on the ultrasound. I wasn't prepared to see my little one. I had so much bleeding and horrible cramps for about two hours before passing my baby. It was horrible.
Now as I'm sitting here...I know I have to do this again. This waiting is torture.
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