I just want to explain things....Sometimes people say I'm so glad you have Owen.

I can see where people would say that, but it also makes no sense to me. It doesn't make me feel better at all.

I am so thankful to have my son. I love him more than anything and everyone. I'm so happy to be his mom and I can't even explain how I truly feel about being a mother and the miracle that he is. I thank Heavenly Father everyday for him. My world is so much brighter and happy having him. Being able to experience being pregnant for nine months and birthing him...it's amazing. I love love love Owen. I'm so thankful to be his mother. I  know how truly lucky and blessed I am.

But I should have six more here. I should be able to experience this with all of my children. I am missing out on everything with this six little ones. Six littles ones that I will never get to hold or see grow up or here them laugh. It's hard and nothing will ever take that pain or loss away. I will always grieve for these little ones.

Yes, it does get better and I do try to cherish every little moment with Owen because I don't know if I'll be able to do it again.

I love my son and my six angels.