Normal

I just got the lab results and NORMAL!!! Yesterday they said everything looked PERFECT!!!!!

I want to SCREAM!!! I don't want everything to be NORMAL! I want something to be wrong with me so they can fix me. I want something to be wrong so I can know why I have lost six babies. I want to know why. I don't want it to be normal. I want to be able to fix things so I don't have to go through this anymore. I don't want to have another miscarriage. I want to have another baby...here with me.